fighterX

punch card? why should i? hoho.. kisah hari ini adalah mengenai hari semalam. figterX. got new friends. it was indeed a good experience. layan-ing the kids n parents. layan-ing kids was fun, but their parents was no fun. the best part of the program i think is to see my student won. thou i no longer teach them. but still rase terharu bila diorg menang. haha. feel the same thing when they go to 8th kyu grading last time.

did i join the tourney? no. ni untuk budak2 sekolah je. semua yang join ni under karateworks sensei. i am only one of the crew. was selected to be one of the ref. but didnt be one due to some reasons. but hope will be one for the next tourney.

best ke jadi crew? well, i got a free FX-shirt. n a hotel room to stay. best kan? if only there is no one who already booked the very same room, then we can actually stay there for 2 nights. but 1 night is still nice. thankx sensei! :)

akhir kata, senang je nk pergi venue. tapi kami slalu sesat otw back. haha.

pasal punch card tu, lain kali ar citer. adios..

1st day of work

my first day of work!! intern je pon. haha. but still excited.

things that i have done today. tegur this one guy. i thought he is also n intern like me. but turn out to be a new recruit. BUT. when do i know he is not an intern like me but a new recruit?

1. all of us. new employee n intern need to go to this one room for briefing.

2. before briefing start everyone got two file. with many forms in it. curious to know what is inside. one for the company record n another one is for them. kenapa aku tak dapat apa2 file pon?

3. briefing start. yada2. then miss vicky (the person who gives brief intro on the company) wants all of us to introduce ourselves. this is the time i got to know that i am the only intern.

then she give short tour. only after that i got to sign my first contract. haha. nak bangga jap. da besar la katekan. then one by one went to their designated department. y do i need to stay here. bosan kot dok sorg2. dan setelah tunggu lama. akhirnya ada gak orang yang sanggup kutip aku dari HR g deparment piping. intan nama dia. tetiba teringat kat ex-roommate.

nak cerita pasal kat department lak. sampai2 dapat pilih meja. hoho. best kot. tapi time nak decide dia cakap, "awak amik je la meja tu, dekat ngan supervisor". maka duduk la saya kat situ. oh. got this one list, need to get signature from all head in my department. ramai la pulak kenal ayahanda. ade tu kenal gak dengan diriku ini. aku je tak kenal diorg. bajet popular. hoho. pastu kena baca document. banyak pulak tu. ari ni sempat baca 2 file je. esok kena ar pulun baca lagi ntah berapa. baca yg relate je pon. yg cam tak relate lea skip. idea dari engineer kt situ. dia cakap yang penting sign lepas konon baca. kena baca suma files in 2 days.

oh, yang paling best arini. dapat access card. apa yang best sangat pon. tapi masa dapat tu memang agak excited ar. haha.

ni cara2 exercise. suma meja ade. sorry ar gambar tak jelas. phone kuno la katekan..

esok tuka meja. mungkin dapat supervisor baru. yang paling penting: esok dapat computer. yeah!! tapi tak dapat full internet connection ar. n i got my new email. something@there.com. (bukan email sebenar). n my new place will be next to my secretary. senarnya department general secretary. but still ok wat. arini dok keliling lelaki. nanti da pindah kat material dapat ar kawan pompuan sikit. ladies ar minority in the department.

dah2. tak lea cerita banyak2. adios..

picnic

yes i went picnic today with the 5bees. class 5B 05' u guys rocks!!

ok2. so of all the places we pick the exact spot we have out picnic in 2005. yes, we are all form 5 student at that time. so it is 6 years back, reminiscence the good old days experience. i believe it was our third time there. baru ingat arini senarnye. masa borak2 ngan diorg it was overall a great day with great people doing great things. is playing card consider a great thing to do? hmm...

anyway, there is only 8 of us today. four guys four girls. we eat. talk about the good old days. we play card. we take pictures. n ice cream!! aiskrim dibelanja dari nabil@abah for the day. hoho. dah kerja la katekan. oh talking bout which, haziq cooked!! yes really. unless dia tipu ar. cam tak percaya je. memang tak percaya sampai ke sudah senarnya. does he really cooked? ok2, maybe he did cooked.

trying to write in words. but guess that i just cant. tak reti nak cerita. senyum je memanjang. saya normal k.

anyway, esok dah start kerja. intern je pon. till then. adios

engineer to be..

my 3rd entry for today. giler ar. rajin sangat aku menulis lately. takde keje ke? ade je senanrnya. dok rumah ni macam2 kerja ada. kerja apa je? mengemas, basuh jemur kain, masak. stakat ni baru masak nasi je pon. tapi kira kerja ar. pastu layan si kecik tu. si kecik yang ikut mood dia je. harap2 lepas ni dia rajin n dengar cakap.

so entry kali ini mengisahkan aku sebagai bakal engineer. isnin ni start practical training. tadi tengok science discovery. pastu ade la tengok pasal explosive. cam best je. then tell my mom. "mak, ija da besar nanti nak buat bom la." then mom like "TAK BOLEH!!". then an advertisement comes in. "mak nanti ija nak kerja kat oil platform"  then i got this reply "ija perempuan". i know im a girl. dulu kini selamanya a girl. mane lea tiba2 jadi lelaki. tapi nak wat kerja apa je cmni?

kisah camne lea amik engineering.
1. pilih UTAR or UIA. takde pilihan lain :(
tak mo amik A-level, so pilih UIA
2. check website
takmo medic n anything relate to bio
takmo law, n languages
takmo aed
so last2 tinggal engineering, ict n physical science.
n that is what i write in the form.
masa tu lea pilih 2 je. so i choose engineering n physical science
3.pastu majoring lak.
tak lea amik manufacturing :(
cuz im a girl.
pastu last2 amik material. (hasil perbincangan anak dan bapa)

sekarang ni lak. banyak yang cam tak lea gak nak amik. with the very same reason. cuz im a girl.
maybe ill just end up being a teacher.

tapi kalau buat bom tu memang cam best. stakat ni main mercun pon tak dapat. :((

bila fikir balik. as an engineer. kalo dok ofis pon kena g site visit gak kan? hmm..

kata2 terakhir. kalo wat roller coaster pon cam best gak. hoho

ingat mati

thinking of sleeping already actually. tapi terdetik nak on gak laptop, kot2 dapat email dari london.
then, alang2 on laptop, saya pon wat la routin biasa, check email yahoo, hotmail, gmail, facebook, blogger, etc. banyak la pulak kan. ok2. so story kte hari ini.

hari ni nak cakap pasal saat terakhir. idea datang dari blog syida sulaiman. pernah ke rasa cam dah next minute cam dah tak hidup da kat dunia ni? pernah tak? well, dulu masa kecik yg tak berapa nak kecik. malam2 slalu gak tersedak. takde la slalu sangat snarnye. cam kurang oxygen. cam dak asthma. memang rasa cam nak mati ar. tapi alhamdulillah Allah masih panjangkan umur untuk tobat.

then cakap pasal mati ni, kalau dah sampai ajal. memang tak lea nk lepas ar. n tak lea nk predict. ade tu sakit punya la lama. doktor cakap mati next month. tapi hidup je orang tu. setahun pon tak mati2 gak. pastu ade hidup sihat tanpa penyakit. lea pulak mati tetiba. tercekik makan ikan bilis. tersedak nasi impit pon ade. *yg pasal nasi impit ni, ak masa memula dengar tu pon tak caye. ingat rumors semata2. tapi lepas jumpa kawan kepada mangsa. yang berada di tempat kejadian baru la aku caye. kawan ak dulu trauma gak makan nasi impit. tapi skrg da tak kot.

so, pendek cite. mungkin nanti aku tidur da tak bangun ke. mana la tau.

maka dengan ini, sempena esok tetap akan menjelang. tapi tak tau la hidup lagi ke tak aku pada esok hari. nak minta ampun maaf dari semua yang kenal dan yang tak kenal diriku ini. kalau tak kenal pon sila la maafkan aku ye.

afwan, sorry, sumi masen, minta maaf...

master?

hari ini hari jumaat. jumaat is friday. kalo bahasa arab jadi yaumul jumuah. yaum is day. day is hari. kalo al-yaum jadi the day. hari ini hari last exam saya. hari ini saya happy. sebab exam hari ni conform pass. haha. yang sebelum2 ni. harap2 pass ar. tak mo repeat pape. tapi kalo kena repeat pon bole wat apa pon kan.

ok2. kisah yang tak berapa menarik yang nak share kat sini. exam bio. tak bole nak retrieve data from memory. so lama ar dok menung soalan tu. sbnarnya sampai abes dok menung je kat soalan tu. mana la tau kot2 ade jawapan disebalik soalan. haha. tapi tak dapat gak nak retrieve sampai dr iis dua kali minta soalan. tapi tak mo bagi gak. tapi kali ke-3 tu bg je la. bukan ingat pon. tapi yang best tu, dalam tak ingat. i do still write a short answer for that suppose to be long answer question. dalam tak ingat tu, lepas exam bole pulak dr iis cakap next sem amik master. kami heran. siap wat2 tak dengar. tapi betol la tu, next sem amik master. sorry sir, but we have another sem to complete our degree. dr agus bila dengar lak bole nak support dr iis.

tapi kan. bila cerita pasal master ni. sejak start wat fyp ni, ramai lak lecturer soh sambung study kt uia. amik master. relek2 ar. baru wat fyp 1. fyp ni pon masa wat report baru btol2 paham apa yang telah aku buat dalam satu sem. teruk kan? yes i know. tapi tu la. master? lepas da kerja few years la kot. btw, yg lecturer dok jemput wat master ni bukan kat ak sorang. ramai gak kawan2 diajak. kira kami sama2 bijak ar. hoho. nak gak ngaku bijak.

ok. so now talking about next step. lepas ni nak buat apa? well, 1 week break then practical training. so this week, ade ar. mane lea bgtau. nnti bila da buat. maybe MAYBE mungkin akan ditulis kat sini. 1 week ni sebenarnya banyak je program. banyak sangat sampai overlap. skrg ni tengah pilih nak pergi yg mana. hoho.

k ar. till next time. adios people. decision decision decision..

this is life..

notes banyak je atas meja. tak cukup kt meja, ade pulak yang nak jatuh la, terbang la. belum agi yang ak da campak kat katil. katil kat belakang. so tak ngadap ar katil kalo tgh study kat meja study, maka ngantuk tu kurang la kot. kot je ar. so pendek cerita, notes ni bila time exam memang berada disekelilingku. bajet banyak study ar tu. tapi, banyak mana ak da study? semalam bole ar nak kasi alasan demam. tapi hari ni yang sihat walafiat ni, bukan banyak study pon. haha. ni past year yg konon nak buat 2 3? satu pon belum siap beb. haha. tu la berangan je memanjang. tukar sikit ar, merenung masa hadapan. cam sedap skit ayat.

sempena exam, mesti ar banyak baca. tapi arini instead of banyak baca notes, aku banyak baca blog kawan2 n blog ntahsapantah. pastu banyak lak yang citer pasal skola ni. cam best la pulak life as student skola. (rata2 yg aku baca ni budak skola asrama), bila tengok balik life aku kat skola, aku lak yang cam kurang life. err.. nak cakap nerd, conform tidak. tapi memang cmtu ar. setakat nak lepak ngan kawan pon punya la payah. budak baik kan minta izin kalo nak kua rumah. pastu sesi soal jawab. nak pergi mana, dengan siapa. balik kul brape. parents saya agak lenient. ade kawan tu lagi susah nak kua. so last2, nak kua mesti kena bawak orang dewasa. so terpaksa ar heret kakak sape2 join outing yang tak seberapa tu. thou diorg ni pon bukan dewasa sangat. tak pon g lepak kat rumah kawan je. baik nyer la cara kami gathering dulu2. tapi rasenya dah besar ni pon slalu je gathering cmni, n balik2 uma keramat hujung tu la jadi mangsa. haha. but thats life. tapi sebab dah dewasa ni, senang sikit ar nak kua rumah. yang susah sekarang ni, time dah lain2. ade yg da keje. stakat yg study sama2 kat uia ni pon payah je nak jumpa.  rindu la pulak rumah keramat hujung tu. lepak pagi ke petang, pastu tidur situ je. tak nak balik rumah. missing the 5bees..

then talking bout life in matric. best ke? itulah kali pertama dok asrama. home sick wei! sampai sekarang ingat perasaan ditinggalkan, saat kereta innova bergerak meninggalkan parking khadijah kolej. 1st time la katekan. haha. buat malu je. then ari kamis je dah siap2 nak balik. kalo ari jumaat tu takde kelas, pagi tu jugak balik uma. haha. teruk betol. memula tu ayah amik. pastu masa dia g outstation, ak tetap balik uma tiap minggu. memula tu takut gak ar. first time naik public transport. tapi dah lama2 tu da biasa ar. tapi still tak suka naik public transport

eh, bukan ak patut tengah study ke? rajin lak nak wat karangan kat sini.
tak sabar nak abes exam. tapi nak study malas. haha
adios

atashibaraku..

memula sensei cakap nak ajar jadi ref, tak pon jadi juri (orang yang pegang bendera aka@merah dan ao@biru). tapi akhirnya jadi time keeper. but still a good experience..

so apa bende atashibaraku ni? well, im not really sure the actual meaning. tapi kalo masa kumite (@sparring) ada lagi tinggal 10 saat. kena la inform player. so, atashibaraku ni lebih kurang 10 second remaining. better u make a score, time is nearly over.

masa jadi time keeper, macam2 jadi. memula tu bell yg tak berapa bunyi. pastu tukar whisel. atashibaraku tiup sekejap n sharp, tiup whisel lama bila dah habis time. tapi slalu tak berapa bunyi je 1st blow. takpon bunyi terkuat sangat sampai ref ingat dah habis time. haha. so last2, bila dah tinggal 10 seconds, terpaksa la jerit atashibaraku. berkali2 sebab kadang2 ref cam tak dengar, well i feel that way. haha

nak cerita pasal kata (@pattern pulak). aku ni dah slalu datang lambat training. n kadang2 tak datang. bukan nak cakap hebat ke tak. tapi tak sempat. malam la masa nak buat kerja2 yang tak sempat buat di siang hari. tapi last minute join gak kata. kata individu, kalah 1st round. buat malu je. then kata team. kalah gak 1st round. kesian team-mates aku tu. sorry guys. sorry sangat2.. akulah perosak kata shito-ryu..

thou the start doesnt look good. but overall, onegaishimasu #7 & iium family day ni, not bad la. tahniah kepada program manager n the committee members.

coming up next: solat hajat & farewell party to graduating seniors. then, grading. pastu final exam, then intern..

aku sayang Malaysia!!

hectic week? not really. its just that doing thing at the very last minute and doing things that subordinate must do, but didnt do it the way we want it to be n we end up doing the things ourselves. subordinate seems harsh ya, so it is something that need to be done by my junior but the dont do it the way i want it to be. it goes with the saying, if u want to get things right u get to do it yourself. im not saying they didnt do their job at all. it is just that it is not the way it should be. or at least now the way i want it to be.

anyway, coming program is yokoso and outdoor training. 26th n 27th feb. we put it a bit late. technically should be in the middle of this sem, but purposely we schedule this way, to fit to karateka's planner. to fit to uia calender for booth uia main campus n foundation studies. but somehow, still go clashing with kibukai taournament (hope i spell it correctly). so some of the karateka already cant make it. really hope that all the things that should be done are done. n that things go as planned.

then,  onegaishimasu (hope that i also spell it correctly). this one suppose to together with IKCT, but then with some reason keep postponing the event. n finally was postponed to 5th march. (hope that there will be no more postponement of this program). i just want to tell the world that in UIA, if there is campus election, no program should take place. both inside n outside program. in malay term. "semua program harus dibekukan". yes student can only do nothing in uia other than going to classes. i dont know this is applicable to all university or only happen in uia.

next is ummatic week 2011. this is an every year program where uia citizens show where they come from. more to sharing of culture around the globe. uia is itself international having student around the globe. it is just that in my major (material engineering), i only met one not malaysian student. i refuse to call him international students cuz i think all of us are actually international students, the difference is just that are u local citizens or foreigner.

so, about this ummatic week. last thursday. i met one of my friend. he ask me to be the malaysian representative for this ummatic week. i thought he is just kidding. n so i refuse with reason im actually half malaysian. haha. but then, today, looking at two of my friend fb status. i feel like i need to be the malaysian represenative (thou i actually dont know what i need to do if i am one). so i ask him (my friend who is one of the ummatic week committee), whether it is still vacant or somebody already take it. n he said there are still no  malaysian representative. n so now. another job for me. but this one i share with my material friend. my msd asgn group to be exact. but seems like one of my senior seems to be interested in this so now it is 5 of us. if my ex-roomate agrees to be one of us, then it will be 6. so the things that we need to do so far is to think of how to decorate Malaysian booth so that to promote the true Malaysian identity. hehe. if u are uia student, malaysian n want to join me n contribute ur idea. u r most welcome.

n btw, this ummatic exhibition is on 2nd till 7th march, clash with onegaishimas, 5th march. but why i still take this job? one reason is that i just feel sad knowing Malaysia booth will be empty. thou im actually singapore citizens, but i was raised in Malaysia. this is the place i know what life is about. if there are somebody who want to be the malaysian representative, i will jsut leave it alone n just visit booth@ummatic exhibiton like what i did every year. but seems that nobody take it. so i feel responsible to take the place. but im not alone in this mission (mission do sound big, i know), but i have my close friend who are equally as busy like me with me. i not alone, n i do have supporter. u are also welcome to support me. but please dont say what i do is of no good n just bring trouble to myself.

both Tunisia n Egypt already make a big change in their country. this will not be a success without togetherness of its nation. n will not even start without an initiator. life is not easy as it looks. if we want a change in this world, we need to say it out loud. there will always somebody who will give u support. all u need is to search for this people who are willing to be with u no matter how big or small the wave. suddenly feel like going to the beach. hehe

seems that my writing is long enough. getting back to work..
all the best in all the good things that u do..

hari ini

rajin nyer aku update blog. the thing is aku stress. n i also dont really know the reason. it might be due to one reason. it can olso be of many reasons.

bila tak tau nak luahkan perasaan, either sujud lama2 time solat. or tulis n keep on writing. n it really is working. well, for me la at least. kalo saya tiba2 cakap sorg2, tidak bermakna saya gila

so kisah pada hari ini. hari ini hari rabu. tadi exam biomaterial. tak dapat jawab question 3. venue kat kelas je, bukan exam hall. last question cam tak jawab ngan complete sebab tak cukup masa. tak sempat nak check balik apa yg aku dah tulis. punya banyak kali postpone, kenapa tak dapat jawab gak eh? fikirlah sendiri...

sekarang ni sebenarnye tak tau nak buat apa. kerja camtu la. boleh senarai. n senarai akan jadi agak panjang kalo tulis. tapi tak mau tulis n tak mau buat. then tanya kat diri sendiri, apa aku nak buat sakerang eh?

things can only be done at the very last minute. ye ke? well applicable to me. kalo kerja start awal cmne pon takkan siap punya. assignment project. pape je la. tu sebab due date itu penting. n submission date kalo bole jangan la sama hari. pening ar nk buat mana dulu. haha. padehal kalo wat awal, this thing is not actually be an issue..

post hari ini tidak bermotif. hanya sekadar tangan ni nk menaip jugak

peringatan untuk diri sendiri. tak kesah la trainign sekejap ke lama, sila buat strecthing. kalo tak sakit satu badan cam hari ni.

aku tewas..

it is me again n i really like to talk about myself. 

yesterday, i sleep early. im done with reading all the scientific names. i dont know how to pronounce those words, just hope that in the morning i can recall all those. biomaterial mid exam is postpone again for the second time. i dont really care. seriously, i just want the exam to be done, thou i know my result wont be that good. but looking at my classmates. kesian mereka. there are those who just arrive in the morning (bad traffic from hometown), sleep in the bus, n stay up to read this subject, muka diorg memang ngantuk giler tadi. n for those who live nearby, they come to uia on saturday or sunday. yang semangat tu, khamis pon dah sampai. dah tu, semalam stay up, muka ngantuk. 

aku? i just want to get things done. not really prepare for exam. n takde perasaan nak exam pon sebenarnye. now, anytime will do. nak buat exam jap agi pon takpe. cuz i really want to get things done, n dont really care the outcome. tapi harap2 pass ar. 

pagi tadi sempat nak breakfast ngan family. goreng pisang nyum2.. pastu mak siapkan bekal nasi goreng agi. love my family. esok takde class composite n msd. macam nk balik rumah pon ade. hehe

tajuk tu cam lari lak dari karangan aku ni. well, aku tewas ni sebab kalah ngan diri sendiri. kepala pusing, balik bilik, tido, terponteng class. pening before n after sleeping. n still pening. 

esok takde class. nak buat apa eh? 

why karate?

soalan yang ntah berapa kali diajukan kepada diriku. sensei, senpai, kohai, yg bukan karateka pon ade tanye. setakat ni jawapan yg deberikan mesti lain2. especially time jaga booth. nak promote karate la katekan. haha

well, it started back then, when i was in junior 2, IIC (Integrared Islamic College). time ni la mula mengenal martial art. masa tu ade silat je. red uniform. training under ustaz Nasir. nak join sangat2, but dad didnt let me :(

every year, awal tahun, mesti persuade dad to let me join any martial art. n answer will always be a NO. be it silat, taekwondo, aikido. pendek citer suma la

then finally, junior high two, 2002, new school rule, everybody need to take a martial art. n that time there is karate n taekwondo WTF, so i choose karate. cuz just loved the demo. hehe. so that is how i start. masa ni compulsory pon, need to persuade my dad kot. pesan dia setiap kali nak training dulu, dont get hit. haha. sayang betol ayahanda. so that is how i start karate.

kenapa saya setia kepada karate shito-ryu? memula tu takde la setia sangat. masa zaman sekolah je setia gila. haha. masa zaman matric dulu, ade niat nak join aikido. tapi sebab tak tau cmne nk join, n senior sekolah lak ajak join karate. maka saya pon sambung la join karate ni. agak best la time ni, sebab da color belt. pastu 1st week da join training, pastu bukak booth, sama2 promote karate. n many people like ask me many things about karate (n life in pj, n that was during my 3rd week in pj. haha). pastu training pon ngan color belt, n suma white belt (masa memula je la) panggil kak. n i was actually younger than them. training in PJ was superb. sensei dtg tak dtg, ramai brown belt (fatin, najat, munirah) bg tunjuk ajar. banyak gak blaja benda baru nagn diorg ni, rasanye kata pon blaja ngan diorg. pastu masuk 2nd sem dtg lg 1 brown belt (fatimah, sekarang ni dia dah black belt). oh, pastu, time ni ade widad n g-ha. n kami sama2 blue belt. so best ar. ade geng.

masuk gombak, semua muka baru. takde la semua. tapi ramai ar. didnt feel that welcome. widad ade geng sendiri, g-ha smpi sekarang tak muncul2. pastu kawan2 kain yg dari pj suma menghilang. pastu dah bertekad nk join aikido. tapi tak join gak. konon nak stable-kan study dulu. stay je la ngan karate wat sementara ni. time ni training kat AIKOL. jauh tu. dah la tu, suma ade geng. aku je sorg2. kalo ramai, memang ramai giler. kalo sikit, aku sorg je dtg pon pernah. haha. tapi sensei hardi n sensei mizan mmg baik. dtg jauh2, student sorg pon dia ajar gak. dah la time ni aku agak slow. diorg ckp lain, aku wat lain. sabar btol mereka ni. tak jadi nak tuka aikido.

time goes by, 1st year 2nd sem agak bz. ye ke? takde la bz sgt. tapi bnyk ade class malam. sebok je tutorial ni nak wat malam. tapi sebab tak berapa nak bijak. aku dtg ar tutorial. got C for that subject, n im proud of it. haha. sem ni very seldom turun training, kalo g pon cam awal sem je.

dah satu sem tak turun, cam rindu karate la pulak. pastu sambung balik karate sampai sekarang.

so why i join karate? sebab2 ni la. masih berniat nak join aikido, sebab nak balaja rolling. tapi sampai sekarang tak join. haha.

dah2, jom study bio. bila bca je mulut menguap. haha

329: bad to worse

so it is me again talking about myself. khadijah has gone from bad to worse. n keep on giving unreasonable reasons to make the what is bad to look good.

today is the third day. i skipped classes for 3 consecutive days with 3 different subject. new record for me. but not a good one. tuesday is the first time ever i skipped lab. yesterday i skipped management class, n the midexam for this subject is this saturday. n today i skipped a class again. what happen to me? bukan budak bijak pon. n this few days, i cant read. let me rephrase this, i can read but everything seems so hangging in the air. i read, dont understand, n dont know what i am reading. n the exam is on this saturday n yet skipping class. teruk perangai. i know

the post i write yesterday suppose to make me do better. but it seems that i dont perform my life better. i dont do things that suppose to be done.

i get email from a friend, he give advise to me on something. dia memang kawan yang baik. anyway, just want to tell you that i used to not behaving that way. it is just lately aku dah tak betul. wait, not really lately. it all started from the early ending vacation. or in other word, it start when we are suppose to be back at home, but i am in uia doing some stuff. yes, it started back then. meaning i am not a good girl even before this sem starts.

next week is term break. so i might cut some of my worldly relation n be a better person after i come back from the holiday. khadijah can do it! be better for myself, parents n deen. word terakhir to macam seram la pulak lepas type. banyaknye kewajipan yg tidak ditunaikan..

30 more minutes to my next class. my final class before the term break.

328

blog post no 328. aku keletihan

we get the same 24 hours everyday, sometimes it seems to be more than enough. sometimes it is just not enough. but it is the same 24 hours

last week, i didnt go to dojo. if i do go to training, i will be the last person to arrive. dojo training start at 9pm, n i came around 10pm. not good. but better late than never. i do learn something new for that short period of time. but it might be better if do come on time, better never late. cuz i will learn more than  if i come late.

so in conclusion those who never come late will get more knowledge than those who came late. n better come late than not coming at all.

then my performance in IKCT- IIUM Karate-Do Closed Tournament 2011. the name looked grand. but it is just a small tournament. the selection for MASUM to be exact. n me? join saje2. n that join saje2 make me lenguh2 satu badan n my sleeping time also change. so need to alter my cardian time again. sighh..

oh, lupa pulak. IKCT was on sunday, n on saturday i went to carrier coaching program. learn a lot of etiquette lesson. but most probably i will stick to some of my current image @branding. as what my parents used to tell me, you are what you are n people just need to respect ur with that. alasan taknak pakai high heels. so all i need to do is just to work hard on my internship so that my first real job will be easy.

thats all from me, no midterm for biomaterial today. postponed to 7th feb. im so happy with the everyday got exam after mid break..

327..

post no 327. dah banyak rupanya aku merepek kat dalam ni. haha. something good happen today, but i still seems not to be happy..

tadi ade org tegur, "ko skrg dah tak kenal aku eh". 

perasaan jadi betul2 kacau. tapi berjaya ditenangkan lepas solat zuhor tadi. n that comment is right before i did my prayer. dengan tak nampak sape yg tegur aku berkata, "sorry ar, tak nampak". dah tak pakai cermin mata. mana la nak nampak. sorry la ye.

so in short, if i didnt tegur u. 

please check first whether i wear my glasses or not. 

if i do wear them, then just tegur me if i dont tegur u. 

cuz maybe i am thinking of something n didnt see u infront of me.  

or maybe i am just in a rush to go somewhere that i didnt see u. 

friends are like treasure n i know that

it is just that life are sometimes too hectic that i dont have time to update with each n everyone of u

n so sorry for that

i dont want to be a friend is only there when i need someone to help me

but if i do, sorry for that. i really dont meant to be that way

sms. sorry friend if i dont reply ur text

reason is just that i dont have credit

or i dont notice that i got a text message

in some cases, i do read ur text but decide to reply it later 

cuz i am in the middle of doing something

n at the end forget about the sms

if it is a notification, pemberitahuan, announcement, etc. 

most probably i wont reply. 

other than that, maybe i just dont want to reply ur text

ym, msn, or other online services

sorry if i seems online but didnt reply

it is either i am not in front of my laptop

or the line is not good

or i am in the middle of doing something

or i am sleeping but forget to switch on my laptop

other than that, i am just not in the mood to reply. but this only applicable for some guys

thats all from me. it is up to u to be friend with me. but try not to be my enemy. we can just ignore each other if that is what u want. peace no war

booth

i am safe! well hope so. just submitted the fyp form this morning, the form that was suppose to be submitted by last friday. what have i done today? well, set up booth illegally, without permission from the office. but it is only a booth to promote the club that i love, n not selling anything. so it should be ok

but the thing is, i just pick the spot. n others do the promoting stuff. cuz i got a lot of other thing to do. or is it that me just dont have proper time management? hmm.. but it should be ok cuz i do visit the booth during lunch time.

as for tomorrow, ill try to be there right after i finish my class. macam btol je. yes, easier said than done

as for my fyp, not much progress. still doing literature review..

as for now, i am hungry n want to go home..

24

time is always there for us. everybody have the same 24 hours per day. it is just that whether u know how to utilize the time fully.

so now there is a me. a single me. a bit lost in this world. sesat ditengah jalan yang lurus. well, i hope i am still in the jalan yang lurus. anyway, now is only second week n i already feel like it is in the middle of sem already. n yes not only is my body tired. my mind too. hence i think i need a long vacation. but not that long cuz i might end up dont know what to do

what did i do during the last inter-sem vacation? well, i think i have write that down in my previous post. so let me just continue what happen next.

this sem start on monday, 13 december 2010. so not a good start. but first let me tell u what happen before that.

12 december 2010, sunday. karate grading. if i pass, i get to 3rd kyu. if i fail, i might remain at 4th kyu. but i dont know my result just yet. just hoping for miracle, cuz i dont think i pass. even if i did, it will be just in the border line pass.

so morning is the grading. n afternoon we did some training. for demo at IIS. but last minute, they change. no girl are suppose to do the demo. the demo should be on monday morning. already plan to skip class. n since it was cancel, n dont really know what to do. it might be a good idea if i go to class. so i did go to class LATE. n till now, if i meet the lecturer on the hallway, he will know me. the girl who come late to class.

n that is my story of my first class for this sem. then the next class, came early. n we got a quiz.didnt do well. it is just the same if i dont do the quiz

2nd, 3rd, 4th day. not much to tell

on friday, went to penang for shito-ryu interdojo championship. was selected, thou im not that good. or must i say, not good at all. my coach has trust in me than i do to myself. n by luck i got silver for above 16 years old, kata open on saturday. n also silver for kumite above 16 years old, below 53kg. big thankx to my sensei

yada yada yada. yesterday, got iftar jamaie with KARISMA gombak. (karisma is acronym for kelab rakan siswa islah malaysia). so went there. eat some food. n kek too. thou i dont remember who are the birthday girls. all that i could remember is nusaibah. (this is my friend's name, n not the name of mahallah. who cares about that mahallah anyway. hahahah). then after that, went to karate training as usual. n after training, have some makan2 as a celebration for all who got medals. n yes, i didnt bring mine ( i mean my medal). so didnt take much photo. wait, i think i did take some photo. with kak ecam medal (she got bronze, for ASEAN university games) she is so good that i wish i will be like that some day. well hope so. n i also took picture with aikido suite. hehe didnt remember what is the name of that thing, but there is a picture of me in it.

n today, i become an assistant instructor for kak ecam. not that good. or is it not good at all. this is the first time i teach kids. i usually teach people of about the same age.

now, im at e3 lab. suppose to do my research for my fyp. so far, still doing literature review. some of my friends already start doing experiment. biarlah mereka. asalkan aku bahagia.

seems that my writing is already quite long. so better i stop now. good day to you!

MAHA expo

i think this is the first time i have been to this kind of place. at first, malas2. but then, thinking of maybe this will help me in the future (my fyp to be exact), so i went there with a friend of mine (mr tourist guide, n also driver. hehe)

thou i dont exactly find anything that can be link to my fyp. but i think there are so many things i learn there. first of all, my first time in many things.. first time watching a real life penyu. first time touch a baby padi. first time see a very big (or is it many?) fruits that i never saw them that BIG. then my first time i see a real ayam cantik. (what is it call eh, dah tak ingat. hehe). also my first time watching a red banana. n other things i never see them in real life (selama ni tengok kat tv je =( ). so it is a good thing i went there. wish that i have a nearby kampung that i can visit at least once a week (or monthly at least). but since i dont, i wish i can go there again. but next time with my lil bro, n they will be more 'jakun' than me. i think i also do act like kids there. thank again mr tour guide for layaning this kid.

in short, i get to know so so many things. saya dah keluar sikit dari tempurung kaca. (kenapa kaca? haha) so for my fyp? ntah la. jangan fikir pening2, mari kita bergembira selagi cuti masih ade. haha

to mr tour guide, if u read this post, do leave a comment ya. kat shoutbox pon boleh. (^_^)

oh, saya dah ingat something, itu ayam serama. kot. haha. kan kan?

for more info of the expo, do visit this webpage. i went there on thursday to avoid crowd, but the crowd is still there. sigh..

cuti dah nak abes :(

so today is the 1st day for the new student batch sem 2 2010/2011, ex-matric. hence, this means that, sem break is getting to its end.

so what have i done in this holiday?
1. balik singapore. eidul adha
2. keluar tengok movie with awanis n tiqa. harry potter. mid valley
3. keluar main bowling ngan family. wangsa walk
4. pergi karate training kat pj. sekali je pon.
5. pergi majlis kawin kawan. pastu lepak kat wangsa walk
6. keluar ngan adik2. main bowling n tengok movie repunzel. also wangsa walk
7. keluar g MAHA expo, pastu g main bowling kt ampang point.
8. went to oriental (martial art store) for the first time, pastu main bowling. also at ampang point.
9. g cherating. my first holiday with family for this year. slalu, tak lea nak join :(
10. last but not least, karate training.

not bad la kan cuti ni. tapi balik2 karate n bowling. n dua2 cam hampeh je. tapi ok la, at least cuti ni banyak bersukan.

target sebelum cuti berakhir: naik belt. tapi tengok keadaan sekarang. macam tak lulus je kalo g grading pon.

pape pon, teruskan berjuang. fighting!!
skrg ni tgh mode tak tau nak wat apa, thou sebenarnye ade kerja. haha

wangsa walk

went to wangsa walk again, for (cant recall how many times). but i went there quite a few times already this week. n today its only me with my two little brother. well, not that little. today we went play bowling, not GOOD! why do the ball really like to go inside the drain. not that much strike today, more like i only get strike once. n spare, only twice i think. n the score not even near to a hundred like last time. oh, n i also left my paper there. the sun. ni semua gara2 wafer yang sedap tu.

talking about paper, while i was reading (while waiting for my turn). there this two person (female), suddenly tegur me. n guess what they call me kak! feel so sad. am i looking that old, or is reading newspaper make me look old. or is it my tudung? n i think they are actually older than me.

talking about age, i do ask lots of people why do some people really like to call themselves as 'kakak' or 'abang'. for some it is for respect. but then for me, respect is not in the name, but how do we interact. calling your classmate kakak is so like, 'urghh, mengada nye ko'. n yes, u create a big barrier between u n me. for me one or two years different is not that important to be call kak. n hey, i never ever call my senior kak and abang since school. only in uia i start calling them kak. tu pon yg kenalkan diri diorg kak. nama apa? nama akak xxx. haha, kalo tak memang tak la. i really dont like to call people kak. i remember last time in karate dojo (training centre) in pj. i dont call any of the senior kak, unless they are from main camp. except for two. cuz they make a (not so good) look if i dont. oh btw, last time in school i never call my sister's classmate kak, but gues what. in uia, even my sister junior call themselves kak. macam pelik pulak. nak sangat jadi tua kenapa? tak paham betol..

but then again, takkan nak panggil A! or Oi. kak do sound better. err, adik sounds better. haha.

still talking about age. in supermarket, how come out our mom get to be call kak. nak bodek la tu.

sebenarnye nak cerita lain, tapi melalut kat lain pulak dah. haha, btw, tadi tengok cerita repunzel gak. not bad.