gembira + sedih + geram

tak tau nak tulis ape sebenarnya. huhu. mood sekarang? saya pon tak pasti

hari ni. pagi tadi ade grading. they said i pass. so now i should be brown 4. or 4th kyu. tak dapat double. tidak mengharap pon. i just go to this grading cuz... i also dont know why. could be cuz my sensei, all of them especially a. iman said that they know that i can do it. so pergi je la.

other reason, could be cuz dah lama tak pergi grading. last time is 2nd sem in pj. n now im 2nd year in gombak.

any other reason? well, i think the biggest reason that make me force myself to go to grading is a.iman. with all his reason. among his reason is that, need brown belt for uia dojo. so, i was like >> i want to be the last person to hancurkan karate club in uia.

anything else? meet sensei fadhil just now. buat sekian lama nya. tapi tegur cam nice to meet u je. haha. still takut2 nk tegur. tak tau kenapa. tapi tadi overheard sensei cakap ngan salwan. [sorry sensei, sorry salwan.] sensei cakap camni >> if sensei want u to go to grading, just go. its not what u think. if sensei think u r ready, u r ready.

lebih kurang cam ayat >> ape yang kamu suka mungkin tidak baik untuk mu. dan ape yang kamu tak suka mungkin baik untuk mu. (correct me if im wrong)

overall, saya gembira sebab pass grading. [train for grading seminggu je]. sedih sebab saya tahu boleh buat lebih baik kalo train lebih. geram sebab tersalah wat time grading tadi.

akhir kata, got this weird feeling that i dont know what it is. bye2. c ya later